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So, it's been months since I've posted something here. I know. I'm such a couch potato. Real life has been most crazy these past few months. Kiddo is now officially a grader. She's just six and she's in first grade. Imagine how old that makes me feel? I married young so I'm not THAT old (defensive!LOL). 

I am occupying myself with work and one important thing that is supposed to change my future. My family's future. I gave it my all. At least, I hope I did. I just can't believe it was within my grasp and it was snatched away from me! What a disappointment! But I am hopeful. The odds are stacked up against me as November looms closer. I feel like I am standing on the edge. It doesn't help that DH is adamant about leaving my comfort zone and trekking into unknown territory. (I shall blog more on this soon!)

It was my birthday a few weeks back. Celebrated it in the big, dirty, and crowded capital city of Manila. I had a nice time. One of my best friends and her boyfriend took me and DH to this really cool vintage joint right smack in the middle of Makati's red light district. o.O  The food was great and my cake was fantastic with its sparkling Roman candle. LOL! The joint's staff even sang the birthday song for me (thanks to my best girl Anne for that)! It was a trip! No better way to spend your birthday than that, methinks!

Now, it's September. Where have the past 8 months gone? I feel like I am trapped in this place with nowhere to go. My life has become this monotony of domesticated existence. I am angry all the time. I am frustrated and I want to pull at my hair.

I feel terrible for dumping my angst on the unsuspecting. It shall get better. It has to.

Frustrated

What would you do if someone close to your heart decided that that person doesn't have respect for you as an individual?

Would that mean that that person is no longer into you?

Would that mean the love between you has dwindled?

Does that mean that someone else might have taken your place in the heart?

What difficult and terrible thoughts.

Could be true or could be false.

ONLY TIME WILL TELL.

Until that time comes,

Remains bewildered. 

Frustrated.

Tuesday Rant

How much time do you spend online?

Can you last for some 18 hours just looking at the computer?

Believe it or not, but I can.

It's strange, I know.

It's even a wonder that I can do anything at all!

What do I do for 18 hours straight?

1. I go on Facebook.

I check my notifications and try to keep myself abreast with

What's going on in people's lives.

(I secretly call it "people stalking.")

I "like" several posts by my friends.

I am not greedy with my "likes" on Facebook.

In fact, if I could like what everybody posts, I would.

But, alas, I draw the line at surveys.

There's just something strange about answering those mindless questions. 

Who thinks about these ridiculous, bordering on ludicrous stuff?

It is completely mind-boggling.

2. I do some reading.

One of my guilty pleasures is reading Twilight fanfiction.

It's pathetic, I know.

But reading is still reading and I like how it enriches my vocabulary.

I learn so much stuff just from reading fanfictions.

There are so many amazing writers on fanfiction that it is

A wonder how come they are not published.

3. I tweet.

I love to tweet. 

I've been tweeting since December 2008 and I'm still addicted to it!

Twitter keeps me updated of the latest news on various global issues, as well as

The lives of my favorite celebrities.

4. I play Pet Society.

I have a wonderful time playing with my virtual pet, Rui Xi.

She has been mine since January 2009.

Through the 3 years, the game has evolved and so has my pet.

I always need to check on her and try to see if she needs to be fed.

I always feel the need to check on the stuff she cooked in PS.

I love decorating her mansion and playing dress-up with her.

SO these are the things that I do online.

They may see trivial but I find myself quite content with these activities.

Soon, I hope to spend a lesser time online so I can spend more time doing more important things.

Wish me luck. Bye for now! ;P

Pinoy TV Drama: Dwarfina

It's weird. I never knew there would come a time when I would be addicted, 

yet again, to a Filipino tv drama. 

We call them fantaserye.

 But, alas, I have!

And to Dwarfina at that. 

I. Am. Pathetic.

I cannot help but feel anxious to watch the newly-launched tv series.

The story revolves around a human-girl-turned-fairy-princess.

I was not able to catch the pilot episode.

However, this past week, when I was having dinner with my girl,

I happened to catch one local actor I've been crushing on for a while now.

Dennis Trillo.

He looks yummy in his worn-out jeans and 5 0'clock shadow!

They cast Heart Evangelista as the human/fairy Dwarfina.

Not too crazy about her but she had dated Echo Rosales (another long-time crush of mine) 

for 2 years so it makes her passable in my eyes. Teehee!

The show also features my other crush, Will Devaughn.

(I tend to crush on soo many local actors! Sorry but I can't help it!)

I think watching Dwarfina is a win-win situation for me!

LOL!

It's been over a month since I've posted anything. 

Holiday season hit me full force.  

There is nothing like Christmas in the islands.

That basically meant that I was very busy with endless parties, 

Non-stop get-together with friends and relatives.

I had to do be in major roles which included, 

Momma to my kid, 

Wife to DH, 

AND, on top of that,

 The errand girl of my family. 

Phew! 

Talk about a lot of people, things, and places to meet, do, and be! 

Respectively, of course!

To be perfectly honest,

This is not how I pictured my life would turn out.

I feel so frustrated with myself for not fighting for what I believe.

I'm taking baby steps, I would try to convince myself.

Baby steps???

I should be f#ckin' leapin forward!!!

No, f@cking jumping onward!!!

This is my last year in my 20s..

I know that should be out there making a name for myself.

I have two effin degrees and here I am putting my career(s) on hold!

I should be mortified!

I should be f#ckin' angry.

But I am not.

I don't feel any of those things.

I know I have a damn good reason for putting it all on hold.

And that reason is lying with her mouth slightly open, 

With drool on her princess pillow.

My 5-turning-on-6-year-old daughter.

My reason.

My life.

My everything.

Despite all the trials and hardship that come my way,

she is the ray of sunlight that tells me,

Time and again,

This is all worth it.

She is worth it.

;D